Monday, August 11, 2008
The Wash-Up
The strongest films I saw were To See If I'm Smiling, My Winnipeg and Rock N Roll Nerd. They differed substantially in style and subject matter, with the common thread being that in all three cases the film-maker had a strong personal connection to their subject matter.
The weakest were, perhaps coincidentally, perhaps not, the American and British films, where the influence of YouTube and Reality TV culture was in evidence, with a home video style aesthetic and at times a disregard for manipulation of the subject matter. Of course, this may simply reflect my choice of which films to see, but it is interesting that I saw more films from the USA than anywhere else and the difference in aesthetic to other countries was marked.
In terms of story, few films could compare to the raw power of the tales coming out of the Middle East. If only more dialogue about the Middle East was as well thought out and incisive as the films on display at the festival. The surprise let-down, for me, was Terror's Advocate, which on the strength of its content should have been interesting but somehow struggled to keep my attention.
Where films didn't work for me, it was often a case of the film-maker doggedly pursuing either a style that didn't fit the subject matter or questions that were not as interesting as others raised in the course of the film. Both cases highlight the documentary maker's need for flexibility. Whereas for narrative films sometimes a director's heroic stubbornness is what brings a creative vision to life, a la Apocalypse Now, in documentary it can be a pitfall. Sometimes, even if you've just, say, hypothetically spent months travelling across a country to film old monuments, you've got to take a step back and ask yourself if it's working quite as well as you had anticipated.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
I Think We're Alone Now
Jeff, a 50 year old Californian man, has been so enthusiastic in his fandom he's been served with a restraining order for stalking the singer. Kelly, a Denver hermaphrodite who lives as a woman, is also deeply fixated, pasting the walls of her apartment with Tiffany's photo. Kelly dreams of one day being in a romantic relationship with Tiffany, Jeff believes he already is. This isn't the only thing Jeff is deluded about, he also believes in Satanic conspiracies and time travel and has spent thousands of dollars on equipment supposed to aid telepathy. Kelly comes across more as a lonely outsider who has locked onto the idea of Tiffany as some kind of saviour figure.
The film is shot in digital video, and seems to revel in its lowbrow feel. Credits are handwritten on note paper, as are titles, which are displayed by putting the paper into frame with the camera on autofocus. It's a little tacky, but suits the subject matter well enough. The oddball characters, as you might expect, provide endless material. At times it's hard to know what's sadder - their lonely obsessions, Tiffany's post stardom career or the fact that the audience were so prepared to laugh at what were clearly a couple of very disturbed people. Herein lies the big question that hangs over the film, which is a question of ethics. It's hard to avoid a certain amount of discomfort with a film based entirely around two people's mental problems.
Tough decision for a film maker. They are two undeniably interesting characters. The film offers a frank insight into obsession, which is valuable. Does that make it right to go ahead and paste their obsessions on the big screen? For the most part Donnelly handles it fairly well but there were still moments I was uncomfortable with. When the two go to Vegas for a Tiffany concert, for instance, despite having never met each other previously they inexplicably end up sharing a hotel room, in a sequence that smacks of having been set up expressly for the film. If so, then the film has started crossing the line from documentary toward reality TV.
Too much of the film rests on the character's twin obsessions, without exploring much beyond them. Sometimes there are other questions begging to be asked that go unaddressed. For instance, Jeff's telepathy gear and time travel books, on which he claims to have spent thousands of dollars over the years. Who does he buy this stuff from? Who's out there turning a profit from preying on the delusional? But no, that question is left as a passing oddity, and Jeff goes on trying to contact Tiffany on his mind device while the strangely incurious audience chuckle away at the crazy person.
I'm glad I saw the film, because delusion is fundamentally interesting, although I came out with a cynicism towards my fellow humans I haven't felt for a long time. Without talking to Donnelly himself I don't know what reaction he wanted from his audience. I hope he was aiming for more than laughter.
Saturday, August 09, 2008
Jesus Christ Saviour
The performance was to comprise Kinski on stage giving a monologue about Jesus. The audience start heckling him and he storms off. He gets persuaded back out, the show continues, and so does the heckling, to the extent that members of the audience get up on stage and try to take the microphone off him. Kinski's explosive reactions to his detractors are a show unto themselves.
Kinski's performance both mirrors and contradicts the subject matter of his monologue. People howl him down as he tries to talk about how people tried to silence Jesus. Then on the flipside he yells at people to shut up and listen to him denouncing authoritarianism. Having set himself up as a Jesus figure, he becomes at least half Pharisee himself.
At the same time as the performance reflects its own story, the film reflects the performance. A couple of people in the MIFF audience leave, unable to deal with it. Others get out mobile phones and twiddle on them during Kinski's longer rants. When the show ends, cancelled unfinished by the despondent Kinski, and the credits roll, most people leave. The audience leaves on screen, and the other audience leave the cinema, but the show's not over. Those who want to hear stay and after the theatre has all but emptied, after the credits, Klaus finally returns to do the show properly...
From a simple proposition - one man, one show, a camera that virtually never leaves the theatre - director Peter Geyer has created a surprisingly layered film, a study of the relationship between performer and audience and a fitting tribute to the elemental force that was Klaus Kinski.
Terror's Advocate
Verges' world is a tangled one. He started his notorious career as a young idealist in Algeria, defending a pretty female freedom fighter who had been tortured by the French authorities. He later married her. While the marriage didn't last, his peculiar career choice did, bringing him into contact with everyone from the Palestinian Liberation Front to the Khmer Rouge to former Nazis. Schroeder sets out to untangle this web through interviews with Verges himself, those who have known him and a veritable army of journalists. Among the interviewees are several figures notorious in their own right, including high ranking Khmer Rouge leaders and even Carlos the Jackal, via phone from prison.
There are a lot of fascinating interviews, but the downside is there are a lot of interviews and, as most of them are in French, a lot of subtitles. Schroeder tries to add context by annotating the interviews with titles and sometimes pictures of people under discussion, superimposed on the background beside the interviewee. That probably works quite well in the original French but in a subtitled film it is confusing, because there need to be titles of the titles as well as the speech and it all becomes a bit crowded.
Crowded is probably not a bad word to describe the film as a whole. While I left with a good sense of Verges himself, it was virtually impossible to follow the timeline of his life or his web of connections. The film jumped from Algeria to Cambodia to Paris, one case to another, one time to another, with the connections sometimes left unsaid for so long I forgot what story I was watching. Sometimes interviews would do the same thing - such as a jolting shift from Verges at his desk, talking expansively while smoking a huge cigar, to Verges standing in an empty court room as if giving witness... but talking about an old relationship, not anything legal. While Terror's Advocate exposes a shadowy world rarely, if ever, seen on film, there are times when its knotted structure increases, rather than cuts through, the mystery surrounding this world. I don't know if I left enlightened or confused.
My Winnipeg
Just when I was losing faith, along comes My Winnipeg. Wow. Canadian film-maker Guy Maddin throws all convention to the wind in this dream-like journey through his home town, its history, its myths and his own memories. It is like a beat poem on film, except instead of Kerouac's highways or Ginsberg's California, it unfolds in a snow smothered landscape of leafless trees and urban decay - Manitoba, the frigid heart of the North American continent and dead middle of nowhere. The film is shot almost entirely in black and white, giving it alternately a bleak, horror-movie feel or the tones of cheesy melodrama. He does everything from represent historical events with shadow puppets to recreate his own childhood with child actors playing opposite his actual mother. He appears in it himself, but always asleep on a train, while scenes from his city and his life roll past the window. It's completely undefinable and absolutely glorious.
So what is it that makes a convention-buster like this work, when other experiments have been leaving me a bit non-plussed? If I had to put a name on it, I'd say necessity. I get the feeling with some films that stylistic devices are added just because the film-maker thinks they'd be cool, whereas in fact you could tell the story just as easily without them. My Winnipeg couldn't be told any other way. How can you convey on camera all the accretions of emotion, memory and imagination attached to your hometown? Maddin employs whatever devices he can to portray his relationship to his town, the combined sense of comfort and oppression, love and hate, familiarity and bewilderment, recognisable to anyone who has lived in a place a long time. Every device he uses is serving that aesthetic. Without them it might have been a film about Winnipeg, but it wouldn't have been a film about Home.
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Bastardy
As with Blind Loves, from earlier this week, several scenes are clearly dramatisations, in which Jack acts out aspects of his own life. I'm in two minds about this as a documentary technique. On the one level, getting your subject to play themselves is as realistic as a dramatisation could be, and arguably no more a performance than someone describing something to the camera in an interview. Either way, it's their interpretation and depiction of their own behaviour.
It's not in terms of realism that I see a problem with it, but rather in terms of viewer reaction. Take for example the sequence where the audience first discover Jack is a burglar. The scene is a darkened house belonging to clearly wealthy people. You see his hands rifling through drawers and extracting valuables. It's a dramatic scene but the moment it starts, my mind took a step back from the film. I started thinking "oh this hasn't been shot for real, I wonder how they did it? ...is this a set or did they use a real house? ...did they direct him to open that drawer or did they just hide valuables in a room and get him to find them as he would if he was performing a robbery...?" and so forth.
At the same time as the dramatised sequence offers an insight into the character, it also creates a distance from the audience by making them think about the film-making process rather than the story. Both Blind Loves and Bastardy had this effect on me at some point. With Bastardy it was probably to a greater extent, because Blind Loves flagged that it would do this very early in the piece and had an overall feel of romantic fable, whereas Bastardy at times took a tone of gritty realism. Notably both these films are character portraits and it is perhaps in these types of pieces where you can blur the line between live action and drama most effectively, when it is personality rather than facts that you're trying to convey.
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
Profit Motive and the Whispering Wind
Profit Motive and the Whispering Wind is an attempt to tell the history of American activism using only plaques, memorials and gravestones. In itself, the idea of making a historical film in this way could probably work. The problem with Profit Motive Etc is not the experimental nature of its approach but rather the lack of coherent story underpinning it. It goes from monuments to Quaker pioneers and Native American chiefs to plaques commemorating 19th Century trade unionists, culminating eventually in a modern day rally opposing war in the Middle East. The motif of wind blowing in leaves is used repetitively throughout to symbolise an ongoing movement across time but this argument, which would be a long bow however you tried to draw it, is in no way backed up by the material shown. It's simply a lot of memorials dedicated to unrelated causes, or to unrecognised names without any context about what cause their owner stood for, if any.
It's a shame because I genuinely would have liked to see a historical film that told its story only using source materials, like memorials. Even without using voice-over or interviews, though, this film didn't manage this, providing comment at several points via titles. Not explanatory titles, which told you whose grave you were looking at, but annoying things like pasting the word "MASSACRED" over "DEFEATED" on a plaque describing a battle from the Indian wars. This kind of blatant editorialising defeated, or massacred if you will, the purpose of not doing a voice-over.
So another experiment falls on its face. At least it was a step up from the two shorts that preceded it, the unsubtly named Capitalism: Slavery and Capitalism: Child Labour, which together posed the question - how long can you add strobe effects and white noise to old photographs before making your audience want to tear their own eyes out? The answer is just over 17 minutes because I was literally seconds away when they finally, mercifully, ceased.
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
Blind Loves
Last night's film, Slovakian director Juraj Lehotsky's Blind Loves, sat somewhere on the misty border of documentary and narrative. It's about love in the life of the blind. There is a blind pianist and his wife, a blind gypsy and his star-crossed love affair, a blind mother and her sighted baby and a blind teenage girl searching for love on the internet. They are real people and presumably real stories, although they are been filmed in a narrative style with several scenes appearing recreated, and in one sequence departing into complete fantasy, when the imaginative pianist daydreams about life under the sea. It would be interesting to know how many of the scenes were scripted.
By inserting the fantasy sequence early, Lehotsky clearly flags that not everything is strictly for real. It is clear the focus is not on accuracy of events but on true depiction of character. Blind Loves made me realise how rarely blind people are actually shown on film, or when they are how they are so often defined by their accoutrements, like dark glasses and a cane. Blind eyes, especially, are rarely shown in close-up, as they are frequently in this film. Despite its liberal use of staging, it would be hard to find a more honest depiction of blindness than this beautiful and unique film.
Song Sung Blue
Song Sung Blue
When I saw there was a film about a husband and wife Neil Diamond tribute band who had nearly but not quite become famous, I was expecting a quirky, possibly humorous character piece. Actually, this film was dark as hell. Shot in rough and ready, almost home video, style, it tracks the fall and fall of Mike and Claire Sandida, otherwise known as "Thunder and Lightning." "Thunder" was Claire, who sang backup and danced in sparkling costumes while Mike "Lightning" did the actual Neil Diamond impersonating. They were big in Milwaukee.
Over the course of the film, these two go through everything. Even before the film begins, Mike has already been a Vietnam vet and recovering addict / alcholic. Over the course of the film, Claire loses a leg, their career together nose dives, their family turns dysfunctional and Mike eventually dies. Not quite as quirky and funny as I'd been hoping for. Probably not what Mike and Claire were hoping for either.
Expectations aside, this is a film that, somewhat like its troubled stars, alternatively finds and loses its stride. One thing I appreciated was that it makes use of NOT showing things you expect to see, or turning away from high drama. For a long time, it avoids showing Claire after her accident. During roof-raiser family arguments the camera discretely faces away or looks around the room John Smith style. When Mike is dying, it won't show his face. This technique of avoidance is both respectful and effective in conveying emotional gravity. Other times though, like at the birth of Mike and Claire's grandchild, or when Claire is washing the stump of her leg in a sink, the presence of the camera feels voyeuristic. At times it is almost as if it is perversely doing what you don't expect it to.
Overall, it's interesting to watch the family's shifting fortunes, especially how every member of the family seems to respond directly to the success or failure of the Neil Diamond act, as if no one has a destiny of their own. I can find with these up close and personal films though that you end up watching every event in more detail than is necessarily needed to tell the story.
Monday, August 04, 2008
Animation Shorts without Dogs
It's an irony about reviewing short film nights that the review can end up being inappropriately long as you try to give each film at least a cursory mention. So I won't go through them all. My favourite was probably Procrastination, a flow of animation passing from one medium to another, stop motion to drawn to computer generated, accompanied by a clever voice-over track. That and the John Lennon one, which used animation to illustrate a conversation that the film-maker had recorded as a teenager after sneaking into Lennon's hotel. It too used a flowing style, each image extending into and becoming the next.
It's a popular style these days, this sense of morph and motion, but for me it still depends on having a solid underlying story to work. Sense of Space for Urban People, for instance, did some stylish flowing animations but without any real narrative, became a bit meaningless. Conversely, Keith Reynolds Can't Make it Tonight used computer generated stick figures and succeeded because of a clever script.
The other trend I'm seeing in animation, and which was certainly felt in the night's program, is its use to address dark themes. Perhaps this is because dark stories become too lurid if told in flesh and blood. Or perhaps animators simply have dark imaginations. Or maybe the lack of dogs made things seem darker.
I found it interesting that the films I gravitated to were the ones that could be classed as animated documentaries. My hunger for reality has grown, it seems, since doing this course.
Be Like Others
This well made and remarkably candid film, the work of Iranian-American film-maker Tanaz Eshaghian, has many highlights, including a documentary within a documentary, when her film crew record another crew making a documentary for Iranian state-run media. My only quibble with it is that it focuses on male to female sex changes, with only a slight nod to the reverse transition.
It's a powerful story, and from those films I've seen made in Iran, it seems to be the kind of country that generates powerful stories. The basis of story is said to be establishing character and putting it to the test. In a country like Iran, where a draconian social order clashes with both the ancient culture and the people's drive to modernise, human character as a whole is put to the test. You see familiar character-types subjected to extreme circumstances. It's like a recipe for a compelling tale.
Sunday, August 03, 2008
Stalags / To See if I'm Smiling
First-
Stalags
- about holocaust porn. Yes, it exists, or did back in the 60s at any rate. The stalags were lurid pulp magazines, describing the torture of captured American World War II pilots at the hands of bustily beautiful SS women. This film by rising young talent Ari Libsker explores the origins and legacy of this short lived but wildly popular phenomenon. Shot in black and white, noir-style, like an old detective thriller, it effectively evokes the era, the feel of pulp literature and the sense of mystery that hangs over the origins of the magazines. The stalags themselves are shown in glorious full colour close-up, so that by contrast they become as excitingly different to the rest of the film as the magazines themselves must have been in comparison to the sparse holocaust literature of their day.
What starts as a titter-worthy film about Jewish grandpas' dirty mags becomes a launch point for a broader examination of Israeli perceptions of the holocaust. You start laughing and end up thinking about deep questions you might not have come to see a film about, had they been presented in isolation. (Whereas who would miss a film about Israeli holocaust porn? I noticed a number of the audience - myself included - looking around at the other audience to see what sort of people come to see a film about holocaust porn. Everyone, as it turned out. The utter wrongness of it proved irresistible.)
The increasing emotional intensity of Stalags was preparation for what came next with-
To See if I'm Smiling
- in which young women who had been drafted to the Israeli army discuss their experiences, their reactions to what they witnessed and most significantly, their reactions to what they themselves had done.
The emotional tone is set high and builds. The women give candid accounts of their time in the military, and each speaks of some event for which they feel shame or regret - a person killed, a suspect incident unreported, a degrading photo taken. The interviews themselves are intense, and the emotive effect is heightened by being woven through with footage from conflict zones where the women saw active service, from the tense daily drag of the checkpoints to wild riots and the aftermath of bombings. You feel the frayed emotional context in which the women were working, you empathise with their darkest moments.
It is a powerful portrait of the psychological impact of conflict. Watching it is like a punch in the heart. I suspect it's the kind of film that could only be born out of personal insight - film-maker Tamar Yarom was a draftee herself once.
Between the two films, it was some emotional journey, as well as a showcase for the young talent coming out of Israel. Emerging into the watery sunlight of a Melbourne winter afterwards was strange, the world around me both comforting and seeming somehow fragile.
Not a FIlm
Hamlet
- not a film version, the live staging by Bell Shakespeare. Okay, that doesn't really belong in a film blog, except to say this. I have yet to see a film of Hamlet that has been able to get it right. Film approaches to Shakespeare seem to fall into one trap or other: either they concentrate on recreating a particular view of the world at the time of Shakespeare (usually a romanticised one, quite unlike Shakespeare's own cynical take) or they put all their effort into not doing this and determinedly planting the story in another time. But the focus on setting, and responding to Shakespeare by where you set him, misses the point for me.
Hamlet isn't about Denmark, or anywhere else. It's about life and death. Specifically it's about Shakespeare's own son's death - the boy, Hamnet, went at eleven, his life's story hardly begun - and Will's grief and frustration sears through the script. This latest Bell production, with its highly physical performances and heartfelt music contrasting against the bleakness of the set and the downward spiral of the storyline, drove home the sense of intense and fleeting vitality that is the heart of the story. I've not yet seen a film manage this.
Although I'm sure one could... if, for example, someone out there was prepared to offer me a budget : )
Friday, August 01, 2008
Tentacles
Tentacles
- an Italian rip-off of Jaws that replaces the shark with an extremely fake giant octopus.
Tentacles is not part of MIFF. In fact, it isn't properly part of cinema, even bad cinema. It exists in its own separate dimension of bad. Why would I go to MIFF tonight, when I can go see Tentacles at the Astor? Underwater, no one can hear you scream. They just hear you go blub blub blub blub.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
A Complete History of My Sexual Failures
Thursday night-
A Complete History of My Sexual Failures
- in which despondent film-maker Chris Waitt, feeling like Britain's Most Dumped after yet another relationship breakdown, decides to track down every girl he's ever had any kind of involvement with and find out why they ditched him.
I would hazard a guess that most people have thought of doing this at some point in their lives. Or maybe it's a guy thing. A dumped guy thing. While writers like Nick Hornby, Ben Elton and Nick Earls have explored this territory through fiction, Chris Waitt decided to do it for real.
His attempts to reconnect with his past and fix his present take him through an odyssey of awkward scenarios. Chris unshamedly puts himself in cringe worthy situations, from confrontations with hostile exes, to blind dates, to begging for sex on the street, to a visit to a dominatrix's dungeon to have his attitude to women "corrected". It's rough and ready film making, with many sequences filmed on webcam, or "video diary" style by Chris himself, but it never fails to be amusing.
However, as riotously funny as this film is, it doesn't sit quite right. Partly, it's a dirty feeling at so much Schadenfreude in one hit. But it's also because the film raises questions that it neglects to answer in its pursuit of laughs.
For starters, after ten minutes watching Waitt on camera, the question the audience wants to know is not why all his former girlfriends broke up with him but why they were with him in the first place. Chris Waitt is essentially Shaggy from Scooby Doo but without a cool talking dog. To add to this, the camera constantly shows him at his worst for comic effect, which makes him seem caricatured, the embodiment of the Undateable Man. Clearly he isn't that - he does have, after all, a very long list of former girlfriends - and there are other way in which his onscreen persona doesn't add up. The character you see on screen is a man with a painful lack of self-awareness. Yet this same man apparently directed a film which knowingly highlights this lack. There is something calculated about the way Waitt presents, which means that for all the personal material in the film (and there is some very brave personal material) I still felt like I was watching a performance.
Complete History is Waitt's first documentary, his previous work having been mostly in comedy. This background clearly rubs off on this film. It is like a romance version of Jackass, drawing on the same "hey, watch me do dumb shit" appeal. It does succeed very well on that level - it has been a long time since I sat in a cinema with a crowd reacting to what they see on screen so energetically, whether it was belly laughs or groans of horror. Still, I can't help but feel that there is a dimension of character exploration which this film only dips its toe in when it really needs to dive.Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Rock n Roll Nerd
>> Speaking of timing, mine was totally off last night. The movie was at 9.30 and I was finished everything I had to do by 6. Going home and back in would have been crowded but three hours in Melbourne city on a rainy evening with no money seems very very long. I spent most of it wondering how chestnut selling could possibly be a viable industry, as I have never seen or heard of anyone buying them. <<
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Cartoon Rabbit
Oddly I've never been to MIFF much, because it clashes with Byron Bay Writer's Festival and this time of year normally sees me heading north for my annual beach, ideas and organic coffee fix. This year though I'm doing the whole MIFF experience. Starting last night with the Documentary Shorts Program.
MIFF's Shorts definitely sounds like a children's cartoon. Being documentary there were no cartoon rabbits although there were, perhaps surprisingly, both cartoons and rabbits. Animation in doco is a bit of a hip trend and the night saw two films that made heavy use of it. Cyanosis intersected animations in and out of observational footage to represent the world as seen by a delusional brain-damaged painter, using the nightmarish visions from his paintings to weave a semi-imaginary landscape around him. Under Construction took place mostly in a virtual landscape representing now demolished suburbs of a Chinese city, with real footage appearing only in fleeting ghost like images. Animation as memory, in this case, a representation of the forgotten rather than the imaginary. In both cases they were powerful tools, but also in both cases they were slightly overused and even I, who am a great fan of animated documentary, found myself hankering for a greater dose of reality.
Rabbits in documentary are not quite as hip but they still put in a showing in Szmolinsky. Szmolinsky is the German guy who breeds giant rabbits and was planning to sell them to Korea to alleviate food shortages there. The film centred around, a) surprising you with how giant the giant rabbits were, and b) the scandal over him selling them to Korea where it was assumed they would end up in inhumane farms. Apparently, I've discovered following up the story on the net, they never got to any farms but all got eaten by Kim Jong-Il and his closest cronies in a banquet... not that any of that got covered in the film, which cut off at the five minute mark, feeling a bit like something created for assessment.
The much hyped A Triumphant Tale I know for a fact was created for assessment, because it was produced out of the same course I'm doing. A tale of two bakers competing in a vanilla slice contest, it was built up big but ended up being a bit vanilla itself, and rather heavily iced with stylistic devices that didn't suit the tone or subject matter of the film. City of Cranes also bore the name of a film school in its credits, and its four chapter structure looked suspiciously like a student film that had been expanded, but was by far the most visually arresting film of the night. A portrait of tower crane operators in London, it soared on the strength of its wonderful photography. The cranes and the city they looked down on were the stars, while the interviews with the crane operators played only a supporting role, the human voices serving primarily to remind you of the human presence in the cranes and to stop it being a film only about machines. By contrast, Mimi and Vali was visually more restricted, being about two elderly sisters living together in a cluttered house, but got by on sheer strength of character. Using only interviews and observation of the ladies at home it still managed to be the most emotionally affecting film in the program.
Dirty Pictures by John Smith used even less devices. In fact it used none at all. Not even editing or plot. This British guy sat in a hotel room in Bethlehem, filmed the roof and spoke about his day. Later, he started filming the rest of his room - tea cups, cupboards, his bags, his shoes. For the first half, this was far more entertaining than it should have been but towards the end he was stretching it a bit. Apparently John Smith (if that IS his real name) does this in hotel rooms all around the world.
This was the first of our class group outings to the festival and we later dissected them all in a bar on the riverbank. Some loved all the animation, some hated it; people were alternately tickled or confused by the giant rabbits; others were nearly ready to put a contract on the head of John Smith. There is always a feeling I get at these group things like there is a bunch of film-makers out doing something and I'm the tag-along fraud. I always find this. Among actors I feel like a writer out of his depth, among writers I feel like a film-maker out of his genre, among film-makers I feel like an actor with pretensions. Sometimes I feel like a lost public servant but then again in the public service I felt even more out of touch, like a cartoon character trying to fit into an otherwise verite style documentary. Somewhere someone's watching going, "No no that character's totally inappropriate for this story. This isn't working at all. Two stars."
Monday, July 28, 2008
A Heavy Layer of Virtual Dust
The thing exposed, like anything that needs dust blown off it, is an obscure artefact with a faint patina of sentiment and no conceivable purpose. Did I really write a travel blog? Who for? I'm quite sure no one read it. And were my travel adventures really as unadventurous as they appear in retrospect? I suppose they were. My main memories of that trip comprise of wandering wet and heartbroken around Vancouver and my lung nearly exploding as I climbed a mountain. I'm not exactly waiting on someone to offer me a movie deal for my story.
I have a theory about blogs, and diaries and all kinds of personal record that you only keep them when you're not really doing anything. I mean if you were actually doing stuff you wouldn't have time to sit down and tell yourself about the day you just had, would you? You'd be too busy. So the only things that get recorded are everybody's in-between times, their idle musings, daily nothings and minutely described inactivity. When future generations clear the dust, real and virtual, out of long abandoned servers and painstakingly recreate the data of our time, they will reach the conclusion that we were all a bunch of idle whingers, who never DID anything.
Except maybe review films. Which is what I'm going to dedicate this blog to now. In theory. If you're a member of a future generation and this is the last post, then you'll know I was only making idle promises. Or else that I went and did something amazing and didn't have time to tell myself.